I must admit that this whole thing frightens me, although I do my best not to show it. I plan to schedule my days as strictly as possible in the hope that it'll stop me from dithering and losing what little momentum and enthusiasm I have. It will be hard, it will leave me exhausted, it will cause stress in the short term, but I hope it's for long term benefit.
My one fear is that I won't be able to stick to this, that my anxiety and depression will get the better of me and all my well laid plans will just fall apart. I want this to work, but then I've wanted to make changes like this for a long time and not much has happened. I am getting more support this time than I ever have before, but will that be enough if I can't keep myself from faltering?
I don't know if I can make this happen, but I do intend to try. I just hope that the little strength I have is enough to see this through.
